grow. I'm ready to get into a routine with homeschooling.
And I'm sad.
I miss so many things about the northwest. I miss my siblings and my parents. I miss seeing my nieces as they grow up. I miss my aunts and uncles and grandmas and cousins. I miss the mountains and the pacific ocean. I miss the laid back culture that is so accepting of such varying views, even if they don't like each other. I miss friends who have been along on some of the deepest, darkest valleys we've ever had to journey through.
It has been amazing the last 6 weeks, recounting all God has done in our lives and for us the last 2 years. We have seen his grace and love in our lives, in our marriage and in our family-beyond what we knew possible! We have seen him provide miraculously for us in our needs and in our desires. It has also been humbling. I have had several conversations in the last week about ways God prepared our hearts to be ready to receive what he had for us. That God would work such details for our good, for our growth, all at his gracious choosing, and then invite us to get to take a front row seat to his story all over the world is beyond my grasp. As I sit here in my living room in quiet and calm, after the bustle and chaos of this summer of travel, I can't put it into words.
This morning as I woke up early I turned to the Psalms. I can so relate to David in my myriad of emotions right now. And yet, as David comes back to time and time again, I too stand in awe as I declare that God is good. God is just and righteous and He alone is God. Despite anything else-my own emotions, my own journey, joys, sadness, enemies-God is good. He is God and that alone makes him worthy of all that I am.
Tonight, my new reality is one I hope becomes a lifelong, permanent reality. It is a reality of declaring the glory of God, understanding the sorrow that comes at living in this present reality that is but a poor shadow of the amazing reality to come, while still enjoying fully the moments when God's glory intersects our earthly world as a taste of that wonderful future. And if reading that makes you go "huh?" then you're not alone. I can't contain all that I'm feeling and all that I've learned. I'm still processing and walking it out. But in that, God is good! God is good and He is gracious and merciful and just and loving and compassionate! And I'm ready to journey even farther with him in his story! Are you ready for this next season of our journey?