Today we woke up with no more X's to cross off the calendar! Daddy's coming home-daddy's coming home! We cleaned, baked, decorated and got all ready. The excitement was like static in the house and we bordered on crazy fun and losing our emotions with it all. The kids and I played this morning and had a rock concert and dance party. We were finishing lunch and getting ready to go to town to run errands before heading to the airport. I checked my phone quick as I passed the table and there was a message. "Hi Carolyn, it's Teri (our leader's wife). Call me as soon as you can. There is a situation with the guys and I will explain it all to you." Instantly I froze and my mind went a bit into panic mode. Were they ok? Were they safe? What happened, where were they?? The kids and I had been tracking the flight and it all looked just fine so what was going on. Given that the team is flying from the middle east I pretty much imagined all worst-case scenarios. I called Teri and found out one of their early flights had needed to make a medical emergency landing. The team is fine-just delayed by a new flight itinerary which will make them much later (as if they aren't tired enough!)
I have to confess, it was an opportunity to trust God more and I pretty much failed miserably. For a while my attitude was selfish and deflated and disappointed. But as I realized the reality of those we love being safely on their way when that message could have held so many more worse things, I was thankful and fixed my attitude. I made coffee for myself, hot cocoa for the kids, invited ourselves over to the neighbors for later and put on a Christmas movie. We made welcome home signs that will be on Daddy's pillow instead of held up at the airport. But he will get them still. He is still safely on his way. He is not in a crisis situation and our worlds have not been majorly altered-just this one afternoon. However, some day it may be that. What will my response be if that is the case? No matter what the circumstances I need to rely on the Lord for in this world of so much uncertainty He is our only foundation. If I can't rejoice and thank him in small inconveniences like a flight change then I will certainly be in trouble if our lives are ever re-routed! Just when I think I'm learning this whole trust and submission thing I am humbly reminded that without God and his help, I'm a mess!
Thanks for journeying with us! We can't wait to share our reunion with you and to tell of the amazing things God is doing across the oceans as well as in our very lives.
Carolyn & (sometimes) Ty