Foggy drive home from friends along the MN/WI border
My brain has been overwhelmed these past weeks with details. International visas, travel arrangements, packing up our house into storage, activities for the kids, transition plans as a family, time with my mentor, researching school in Belgium for the kids...I could go on and on. The fuller my mind has become with all these extra and unusual details, the less capacity I have had for regular things. Ty asked a question the other day about which shampoo was ours. It took me a full 45 seconds of staring at him to process the question and answer. Poor guy-he just stared at me wondering what was wrong! While we are traveling and seeing many people to say goodbye, we are missing the day-t0-day relationships as we are in transition. One of my sisters texted me last week, "I can't wait until you move to Belgium and have time for me again." She was being funny, but I realized there is truth there. I have felt a pulling back from those here in the US. A lot is due to the busyness and details required in this season of displacement. Some is also due to the hunkering down we have done as a family, just around the 4 of us. Friends who have adopted have talked about "cocooning" when they first bring their new child home. I feel a little like that's what Ty and I have been doing with J and E since he returned from Germany. We realize how stretched and full we are right now, and are trying to cover the kids as they are in the same exact situation. Throw in that we are no longer living in our house, traveling to various regions of the US on church and family visits, and the seemingly never-ending wait for paperwork with the visa process and it's no wonder I've been a little disconnected. To our family friends: thank you so much for your prayers, texts, phone calls, and dinners through this time. We are so immensely blessed by the enormous community God has placed us in which is now literally ALL OVER! We love you all and have so enjoyed seeing you in our travels and miss those we are not with. Please keep praying and checking in, even when we don't have the ability to respond at this time! To our siblings and parents (both Ty's and mine): you guys are anchors for us. The support you are showing as we separate farther than we ever have, and the way you continue to pray, give, love and even text us, assures us of your love as we step out in this next adventure. I know we live in a world where we all are busy. In this season of a new kind of busyness and detail, we are rejoicing for God's continued faithfulness and goodness, despite a very foggy brain in the singular moments! Here's to the sunshine breaking through the fog!
Carolyn & (sometimes) Ty